Life's Lessons

A whirlwind of emotions. Quiet though. Its been very quiet. Its just been within, and that's how it should be. I have learned some life lessons from two very interesting events. For some time, I have believed learning the hard way is the surer way. It's tough yes, because the stakes might be too high. But I have come to a realization that having to deal with the toughest of situations alone is good for me, because it only toughens me up. And its really upto the wiser discretion, to learn from the situation. Quoting my brother " you have to keep your head above the water. by yourself. that is the only way to love and respect yourself through life. "

Thank you , all friends, and the not so friendly folks, people I've never really known or met , for coming across, and giving me the little lessons, inspiring me without knowing, for without them , I would have felt a sense of waste. This day certainly seems more fruitful, when I look back plainly at the things done and days gone by.

I've learnt to respect and cherish the little things I possess , I've become gladly aware of my relationships, and begun to acknowledge the default love for the ones that have been there forever more than I ever did before.

Choosing, is very very important. And listening to the gut feeling, indispensable. And respecting it, means respecting myself. The biggest lesson learnt.

Lucky

"you are the trip i did not take,
you are the pearls i cannot buy;
you are my blue italian lake,
you are my piece of foreign sky."
-Anne Campbell

love that.
read it by chance while browsing online,
wondering if i'd ever be so lucky :)

Don't Ever Lose Faith in Yourself

My roommate has a very inspirational quote stuck up on her wall that I absolutely love. Lately, I find myself going to her room more often just to read it again. I thought it would be nice to have it on my blog. Here goes:

"Do what is best for you. The future will work itself out; you're the kind of person who can make it happen. Don't let anyone else's negativity influence your dreams, values or hopes. Focus on what you can change and let go of what you can't. You know your own worth, what you've accomplished, and what you're capable of.

Your goals may take a bit longer and be harder to achieve than you had hoped, but concentrate on the positives and combine faith with generous portions of patience and determination. Step boldly and confidently into your future where happiness, success and dreams await you. You have the potential for greatness... never give up."

Aur tujhse haseen?

I was watching the Yeh Nayan Dare Dare song video from the movie Kohra - its a beautiful song (I probably love it even more coz one of my all time favorite bengali songs has the same melody). Its a spell-binding collaboration between Kaifi Azmi and Hemant Kumar. I watched the video a couple of times and I cannot forget the scene that goes along with the first antara of this melody. The hero (Biswajeet) is singing this to Waheeda. When he says, `raat haseen, yeh chaand haseen, par sabse haseen mera dilbar', Waheeda's face lights up with a mixture of joy, pride and coquetry. Her eyes dance in delight at the praise being showered on her. Then he continues, `Aur tujhse haseen..'. In an instant, she looks up, her eyes now flashing with anger, surprise and indignation - what can be better than her, they ask? `Aur tujhse haseen, tera pyaar', he concludes, with a smile, and her eyes settle down, content with the answer, re-assured, secure and happy again :)

p.s. and yes I am very sappy romantic lowey-dowey, didn't you know? ;)

Single Moment

Isn't it funny how a single moment, a single instant in time can make or break your day? And isn't it strange when the someone responsible for this drastic change in mood is an absolute stranger?

The other day, I was at the counter at our local Walgreen's store, and there was this woman with a little girl standing next to me. The little one looked at me, beamed, smiled her brightest smile and gave me an awfully sweet compliment. Then while she was walking away with her mother she turned back and waved at me. I waved back and then turned and looked at the guy at the counter with a big stupid grin on my face. Which I couldn’t wipe off the entire day :) Still grinning actually.

Strange indeed how our lives intersect in inconsequential yet meaningful ways.

Theme Song

Looking forward ...

My state of mind now is quaint.. there are thoughts overflowing seeking outburst yet I remain coiled within myself. I feel paused in a moment but the same moment is filled with emotions, upheavals, fears, and joys. It is something I cannot explain. I am enjoying the silences and spending time looking within myself, yet I am at complete ease with people around too..

My sea of solitude stretches far and wide yet loneliness does not really make me feel like a victim. It only makes me know myself a little better, helping me grow. I realize that only I can be my own salvation. I do not know what the future might offer. Demurely I prevail over these paused moments.. I seek no deception for my inactivity, as the weather plays its tricks on my heart too. I blend with the seasons and nurture my senses on each sound and smell that wafts out of the air around and within me.

Life has offered me a lot, what I have desired as well as what I haven't looked out for. For me, material pleasures is never the measuring tool for satisfaction rather it is the privilege of being loved and cherished by the people around me. I must say I have been fortunate in this regard in ample measures. The canvas on which I paint my life each day is sprinkled with shades from gray to vibrant. Inner fears may lurk but my securities manage to keep them at bay and help me saturate myself with a new sense of well-being. Every tear rejuvenates and lightens the loads within me and dislodges the walls that I may erect from time to time in my heart. The mists in the eyes remind me the joy of laughter as they dispel the darkness and make way to filter in new light.