You know that feeling that you get when you are so overwhelmed with anticipation and the desire to stay a little longer....that feeling that makes your stomach have the slightest tinge of wonderment. I think that is what I have been feeling for the past few days. Ten days left here. Ten days which will go by too quickly. Where the sound of laughter of my dear ones will begin to fade. Where my friends will wish me will, will be sad to see me go, and who will cheer for me along the way.
I am ready to go. I am ready to embrace my future. I am ready for the challenges ahead. I am ready to begin again, to try a little harder, to love a little more, and learn how to continue to move forward instead of looking back. For this moment, I have put the brakes on my tears. There is much ahead, there is much in store. I've always told myself - life is too short to be sad.
In ten days I will pull away from home, my family, my friends, the life formerly known as mine. I will begin somewhere new. It's going to be hard. It's going to be scary. It's going to be me going for it, me growing up, me taking a leap of faith. It's exciting and it's surreal. It's me becoming me.
Me.
Hmm. I sure like the sound of that.
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It seems like only yesterday when I made this journey...and as you will realize soon, the first time would always remain special. However, in this day and age, we are so overexposed to the world, it sure would be less intimidating! Enjoy every remaining moment of the past and embrace the future, which wont be scary at all. Afterall what is life without new adventures?
And in a few years, may be, just maybe, you might end up calling this another "home".
I hope its going to go well for you. take care
Thanks a lot Madhura !
@Deepak: Thats a scary thought! Home will always be Kolkata. Atleast thats what I'd want it to be. Thats where my heart is :)
@Nida: Thanks! Its going well. And I'm keeping the faith.
@Prashant: You're welcome :)
I am reading this and laughing away! How time flies and how things change! "Boredom" was when you wrote and "Busy" is when I am reading it - October,2013 with Kanika next to me...
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