I have always had high (sometimes perhaps unfair) expectations of people. And I would end up being hurt, all my life. It's almost as if the optimism in me always said - oh give it a few moments more, surely they'll come through - because isn't that what people are supposed to do? Someone will reach out their arms to love me. Someone will understand that I just need them to be there. But I was often disappointed.
Then I was told : "no-one can ever hurt you unless you let them. believe that." So I decided I need to be strong and not expect too much of people. I heard life's too short to worry about how other people aren't giving you what you expect of them. Then I practiced that for a while. I stopped being vulnerable. But lately I feel its almost like losing faith in people. And that's not a good thing. I was always told that people are essentially good. And I believed that. I've been lucky and blessed enough to see a lot of goodness around. And lately I've met and come across people like that. People who are "spontaneously nice". People who make me want to be a better human being.
So now I don't know how much to expect. How much is too much? How much is worthwhile? I wonder!
But I like to be an optimist. I know that happiness is a choice and a choice I wish to make.
I know that the hope that overflows within me is greater than any fear I may ever have. I know that people are innately good, and I choose to believe that. To have expectations, and to be a positive person. To be happy and forgiving, of myself and of others. To have passion and desire. To be thankful for everything that comes my way. To love deeply, with all my heart and not be afraid of heartbreaks. To believe in possibility. And to keep the faith!
Perhaps these last two months have defined me :)
7 comments:
Cheers. This is the voice of your protector and admirer speaking :P I agree with every word as if id have said it myself.
Whats with the obscurity Mr.Admirer?! :D
Ok, ill give you a clue. if you get it then you'll figure out the ms. anonymity... 'i wish you were my younger sister maddy'
lol. you never know who could be reading
ive been through this aLOT in recent years. how odd that i should find someone else with similar dilemmas. but i too chose the path of optimism :)
while writing a post today edited something.. a couple of sentences i thought were irrelevant.. the post did not require the details ..
** Sometimes we fall in traps knowing well what the other person is trying to do. Yet we let that person take advantage of us, consciously. Sometimes for love, to see the other person happy and sometimes to test the other person's limits or extents, sometimes for fun.Yet sometimes out of shock.**
No reason why im letting u read something that ive struck off my post. Maybe i wouldnt have, had i not seen ur post.
Ur very honest.
Every bit of expecting is worthwhile. one cannot cease to live. one should not cease to live.
@Prashant: Thanks for the re-assurance, precisely what I needed right now :)
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