Looking forward ...

My state of mind now is quaint.. there are thoughts overflowing seeking outburst yet I remain coiled within myself. I feel paused in a moment but the same moment is filled with emotions, upheavals, fears, and joys. It is something I cannot explain. I am enjoying the silences and spending time looking within myself, yet I am at complete ease with people around too..

My sea of solitude stretches far and wide yet loneliness does not really make me feel like a victim. It only makes me know myself a little better, helping me grow. I realize that only I can be my own salvation. I do not know what the future might offer. Demurely I prevail over these paused moments.. I seek no deception for my inactivity, as the weather plays its tricks on my heart too. I blend with the seasons and nurture my senses on each sound and smell that wafts out of the air around and within me.

Life has offered me a lot, what I have desired as well as what I haven't looked out for. For me, material pleasures is never the measuring tool for satisfaction rather it is the privilege of being loved and cherished by the people around me. I must say I have been fortunate in this regard in ample measures. The canvas on which I paint my life each day is sprinkled with shades from gray to vibrant. Inner fears may lurk but my securities manage to keep them at bay and help me saturate myself with a new sense of well-being. Every tear rejuvenates and lightens the loads within me and dislodges the walls that I may erect from time to time in my heart. The mists in the eyes remind me the joy of laughter as they dispel the darkness and make way to filter in new light.